一直就想创作中寻找自我，即使可能刚开始会落入十分个性的一种弊端,但是我渐渐往下走就慢慢的找到了使人共鸣的地方，我希望由个性到共性的一个创作过程。身为从事具象方向的我，有着很想用具象的表现融入到当代艺术，这是我一直最求的梦想。因为通过大学的学习，才知道路才刚开始。所以我更愿意尝试不同的材料和思维应用到我创作当中，使具象的表达可能性是作为一种探讨。
    I have always wanted to search for self creation, even though there may be a disadvantage at the beginning will fall into the very personality, but I gradually go down slowly found that local resonance, I hope by personality into a creative process in common. As in the figurative direction I have wanted to use the concrete performance into contemporary art, this is what I have been pursuing the dream. Because the study by the University, just know the road has just begun. So I will try to use different materials and thinking to my creation, the possibility of concrete is a kind of study.
    

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《伴》

    
    每个人心里都住着一个孩子，即使童年已成过往，童真已消逝不见，那段纯真的记忆都值得回忆。我只想在那稚嫩的童年里再次找回自己。
    我对童年生活的记忆很深刻，不仅因为那些历历在目的生活片段，还有挥之不去的、真切的内心感受。还记得小学的时候我的生活可以用一张很简单的画面来描述，一张不大不小的床、一张书桌、一个书柜，还有一扇明亮的窗户，似乎跟每个小孩子的生活环境一样，但是我的这张关于童年生活的画面却缺少点鲜艳的色彩。这跟我的家庭环境有关，当时我们家不算富裕，父亲要到外地去为事业而奔波，只有母亲带着我一起生活，而父亲一个星期可能回来一次。可能是我跟母亲多吧，我的性格也开始发生了变化，慢慢的我话语少了，对我不熟悉的人或者环境感到害怕了，可以这么说我越来越内向了。甚至暑假的时候，一个人呆在家，多少感到一些孤独，经常喜欢看看窗外，看看楼下的那些孩子们在做些什么，后来逐渐心里出现了一些幻想的画面，我就很喜欢用笔把它画下来。看上去我的这个兴趣爱好更像是很自我的一种表达方式，但是我认为这里体现的反而是我那个年龄段的一种感受，在看似平静的生活里，带着淡淡的忧伤，可以说是内心的孤独感。
    这种内心感受，会经常使我联想到一些虚拟的形象，他们是那么的高大、可靠，但又是那么的陌生，可以说我在寻求一种安全感。这形象就来自于我对父亲的感觉，父亲在我心中是那么的高大魁梧，对我是那么严厉，很多时候使我感到害怕，但他是家里的支柱。因此会将他想象成一只巨大的鸟，穿着西装，为了工作而飞走。当他在我身边时，他更像是一个坚固的堡垒，有着宽阔的肩膀，而我就像坐在他了肩膀上，那么的需要依靠，但心里又点惧怕。
    我的创作中，用了一些动物形象去象征某些事物，表达某种思想，这样的表现方式主要因为我平时喜欢看动漫电影和魔幻类的书籍、影视作品。我觉得这些元素能与我的毕业创作结合，而且我也是第一次并且很想往这个方向去构思我的毕业创作。还记得宫崎骏这位动画诗人对我们这代人的影响很深，我非常喜欢他的作品。《宫崎骏的感官世界》里说道：“宫崎骏描画的往往不是列车在路上安静前行的日常景象，就是到站时的末日景象。路途似乎没有尽头，但却总会在什么地方与什么人相逢，所谓命运，不过如此”。宫崎骏先生用动画来述说人生，虽然我还没有太多的人生阅历，没有这样的沉淀来体会现实的人生，但是我愿意从点滴的生活片段中去发现我存在的痕迹，回忆我的经历，寻找我的感受。我想用童话般的表达方式去诠释我的生活状态，无论是过去，还是现在。
    关于毕业创作的灵感来源，还有一个来自于我对玩具的特殊情结。还记得我以前的朋友除了学校里的同学，回到家里便是我的玩具，这可能是每个人都会有的情感——对玩具的情感。或许现在看来幼稚可笑，但是没有玩具的伴随，我的童年是不健全的。我曾想，我们在玩耍玩具的时候，其实很自然心里跟它们发生对话，自己当时不清楚，跟自己对话也正是自己。那么说就是我们在通过玩具自我对话，我赋予了玩具的性格，其实也在塑造着自己，这是个有趣的事情。我还记得在不高兴的时候，就喜欢对着玩具，来安慰自己。无疑，它们是这样陪伴着我成长，玩具就像一个容器，把我们的回忆保存了起来。
    

《with》

    
    everyone lived a child, even childhood has become the past, childhood has gone, that pure memories are memories. I just want to in the young childhood find yourself again.
    
    My childhood life memory is profound, not only because those distinctly in the objective fragments of life, there are lingering, true feelings. Remember when I was in elementary school life can use a very simple picture to describe a small bed, a desk, a bookcase, and the windows of a bright, seems to each child’s living environment, but I this about childhood life picture but the lack of light color. This is about my family environment, at that time our family is not rich, he wants to go abroad to work for the cause, only my mother took me to live together, and the father may come back once a week. I may be with the mother much, my personality has changed, slowly I talk less, not familiar with the people I feel afraid or environment, so to say I am more and more introverted. Even the summer, a person to stay at home, how many feel some lonely, often like to look out the window, see the downstairs that what the children are doing, then gradually heart appeared some fantasy picture, I would like to write it down. It seems that my hobby is more like a way of expression is very self, but I think embodied here instead is a feeling my age, in the seemingly calm life, with a touch of sadness, can be said to be the heart of loneliness.
    
    Making this kind of feelings, often makes me think of some virtual image, they are so tall, and reliable, but it is so strange, I can say that in the search for a sense of security. This image is from my father’s feeling, the father in my heart is so tall, to me is so tough, sometimes makes me feel afraid, but he is the pillar of the home. Therefore will he imagined as a huge bird, wearing a suit, in order to work and fly away. When he was at my side, he is more like a fortress, broad shoulders, and I like sitting on his shoulder, so need to rely on, but I am afraid.
    
    making my creation, with the image of some animals to represent something, express certain ideas, such performance mainly because I like watching cartoon films and magic books, film and television works. I think these elements can be combined with my graduate creation, and also my first time to this direction and to the design of my graduation creation. Remember the deep influence of Hayao Miyazaki the animation poet of our generation, I like his works very much. “Hayao Miyazaki said the sensory world”: “Hayao Miyazaki painted tend not to train in the daily scene road quiet ahead, is the station when doomsday scenarios. It seems no end, but always in what place and what people meet, the so-called destiny, just so so”. Mr. Hayao Miyazaki with animation to tell of life, even though I have not much experience, there is no such precipitation to experience the reality of life, but I would like to find my existing traces from every slice of life, memories of my experience, I find the feeling. I want to express with the fairy tale to explain the condition of my life, whether it is the past, or now.
    
    Making about graduation creation inspiration, and one from my special complex of the toys. Remember my old friend besides school students, home is my toy, it is each person would have emotion – emotion for toys. Maybe now it seems naive, but not a toy with my childhood is not perfect. I used to think that when we play with toys, is actually very natural heart with their dialogue, he was not clear, and his dialogue is also his. That is our toys in the self talk, I gave a toy character, but also in the shape of their own, it is a funny thing. I still remember when not happy, just like the toy, to comfort myself. Undoubtedly, they are so accompanied me to grow, toys as a container, put our memories preserved.
    

    
谢鑫
    
1989年出生
2014年毕业于广州美术学院雕塑系。
在校期间曾为母校校庆制作名人肖像工程，具象语言探索课程作品留系，获优秀毕业创作。
    
XinXie
    
born in 1989
2014 graduated from the Sculpture Department of Guangzhou Acmdemy of Fine Arts.
During the period of school was the alma mater school making celebrity portraits, figurative language curriculum work left, won the outstanding graduate creation.